Morganna's Reflection | |
October 31st 2023 | |
The Leica M11 is on it's way back to Germany | |
But don't worry, it's not broken! And Happy Halloween (to me)! | |
by Morganna Nikolaevna | |
About the Camera I picked up the Leica M11 yesterday (Monday 10/30), sort of. Because it required a direct signature, I had to redirect it to a nearby FedEx office location. Then, after picking it up after school, I had to take it do a UPS Customer Service point to send it to New Jersey, so Leica North America can forward it to Germany to replace the leather wrap on the camera. I had to pay $190 to overnight it to New Jersey because the declared value was so high! I made the shipping label at work, then printed it off via remote desktop to my home printer. And when I left work, my car didn't start, there was an accident at the interaction I normally turn left to get home on, so after jump starting I had to take this incredibly roundabout way to get home and avoid all the traffic. It was miserable! And then I couldn't drop off the package at a UPS Store (again, because of the declared value), so I had to travel directly to a UPS warehouse to drop it off. I actually opened the package, removed the battery, taped it up and put the new label on, right while I was standing in the UPS warehouse. The good news is, it actually arrived at Leica America earlier today. So as I'm typing this the wheels are already in motion. My goal is to replace the original black leather wrap with a dark red/purple, and they actually had something close called "Brombeere" (Blackberry?). I really like black, don't get me wrong. So much so that I still have a bit of trepidation switching from black to this dark red/purple color, but I really want this camera to be a fashion statement, so I feel like I can make a stronger fashion statement with the color change. I think once it's in my hands, I'll know I made the right decision. I also ordered, from Leica Austria, a matching Brombeere strap. Once that comes in I'll have a really good idea of exactly what this leather color looks like. I still haven't ordered the lenses and accessories, yet. I have several thousand dollars on the way, I believe, from soon-to-be liquidate Navy Federal Credit Union accounts I inherited about a year ago. I believe once those are gone, I'll close all accounts and never look back at NFCU. To some extent, it's a bit sad to realize my Mother's life work built said accounts, and now they're finally winding down. It's a bit sad to think she spent her entire life saving for a retirement she never got to see. I would like to believe that I can find some joy in this camera, using money she earned... but she was never a big spender like me. She spent her entire life saving. She refused to buy a new phone, even when hers was broken, despite being a millionaire. Other Remarks It's Halloween! Happy Halloween... to me! I put a bowl of candy outside my house... but I don't know how many children came up to get candy. If I have any left, I can bring it to school tomorrow. Perhaps I can bring it, save it, and give some of it to the people who show up to my calligraphy lesson? For this Halloween, I'm alone, like always. I practiced Spencerian. I'm typing on this website (what you're reading now) as I make Decorating Woodcutting Urns in Runescape (in preparation for 120 woodcutting). All while listening to news stories related to the 2023 Israel–Hamas War. |
Morganna's Reflection | |
October 25th 2023 | |
I'm thinking about buying a new Camera | |
The Leica M11 (M10) is what I wanted when I originally got the Fujifilm X100F. | |
by Morganna Nikolaevna | |
In keeping with tradition of wasteful purchases for marginal benefit, I am again looking at buying another camera. I say another because many years ago I bought a FujiFilm X100F which I didn't use too much (except to take some edc photos, and as a live streaming camera for a year during the pandemic). Still, I imagine myself being some sort of world traveler (even though I never travel) and in my imagination I have the Vacheron Constantin Overseas and the cool camera around my neck as I'm talking to all the people I meet in my head. In all seriousness, I recall learning of a photographer named Vivian Maier in an a Vsauce video a few years ago. Vivian took tens of thousands of photos in her life, but never published them. Much like Alf's Room, I find it appeal to create interesting works like this and never sharing them. In fact, arguably that's the entire point of this website (Morganna's House). I like creating work, but would prefer not to share it. (This, I think, is mildly ironic when I realize much of the fantasies in my head I'm famous for writing great anime. But I suppose I'll type about that at some later date.) I imagine Vivian didn't want fame (I could be wrong) for the same reason Adachi of Alf's room doesn't want fame. Or, perhaps, if they get it, it's secondary to their goal of just having a fun hobby on your own terms. When I realize this, I feel like their personalities were, at least in this specific part, similar to mine. And perhaps then if I buy a camera I can take a bunch of photos, never share them, and only enjoy them myself. I think that's a large reason why people take photos to begin with. There are billions of photos taken every day, I imagine, and most will never be seen. For me at least, just the act of taking them and sharing them with myself (perhaps on Morganna's Room!) is enough to satisfy me, which is all I'm really concerned with. Anyways, I currently have a FujiFilm X100F but I'm not a big fan. Perhaps it's because the lens can't be replaced so I don't feel like a "real" photographer, or perhaps it's just not expensive enough for me and I wanted a Leica back when I bought the FujiFilm to begin with, but I'm thinking about buying a Leica M11.
Figure 2 The Leica M11
I'm considering buying this camera because it looks cool and its expensive. Oh, and it takes good pictures, I imagine. But pursuant to my earlier discussions on my luxury spending habits the cost and perceived quality is sufficient for me to want it.
I like the obvious curb appeal and styling. I like the swappable lenses. I really like the fact that I can change the leather wrap color (I want to get blackberry, but I'm not sure if they offer it, after I buy it I'll shoot customer support and email about it). But more importantly, I like the idea that I'm buying. I like the idea of using this camera, for many years, to document even the boring minutiae of the things that I find. This camera will be a friend that I'll have for years. And if I use it, I can upload many cool things around here. Last summer I didn't really explore around the area, but I always felt like the equipment I had was missing the cool factor. But maybe I can if I get this (another desire purchase). I also really like winter, and how I look in winter clothes, so maybe I can do it this winter without having to wait for summer. In fact, I rather like the idea because I rather prefer the associated privacy. No one will see me taking photos. Actually, upon further thought even that idea comports with my earlier notion that "I just want to like it myself". I like my winter clothing because... I like it. Not because I get compliments on it (in fact, no one ever sees it because I walk in the dark on winter mornings). But because I like how it looks personally. It's the same with the camera and watch. I like it because I like it. It's my preference. And I'm going to live my way. I'm vying for my own approval, and I want to like the things I use. For example, after many years I finally found pencils that I like. I found pens that I like. I found pencil and pencil cases that I like. And now, maybe finally, I'll find a camera that I'll like and use. |
Morganna's Showcase | |
October 21st 2023 | |
My ever growing poison plant collection! | |
I grow a lot of poison plants (always starting from seeds). Here's a 1 year update. | |
by Morganna Nikolaevna | |
About a year ago, at around the time I purchased my first house, I got interested in poison plants. I was donated a large African Milk Tree from a family member (who, in turned, got the plant from their parents), and once I learned that the plant itself was poisonous in prompted my desire to have more poison plants in my house. Shortly thereafter I did my standard response to anything that piques my interest: get a bunch of books on the topic and read those before ever doing anything else. I bought (and read) Botanical Curses and Poisons, Plants That Kill, Poison: A History, and Poison: The History. I believe Poison: A History by Jenni Davis was probably the best for the action poisoners, with Poison: The History by Ben Hubbard being the best for explaining the plants themselves. I also red both volumes of The Memoirs of Marie Lafarge, a French woman who was accused of poisoning her husband. In retrospect, I'm actually shocked I read her entire memoir, and even after reading her account I'm still not entirely sure she was as innocent as she let on (despite her protests, she still came off as mildly distrustful... although I couldn't pinpoint why—perhaps it was because of the fact that she had such a strong motive to poison her husband I ignored other possible evidence to the contrary). I then started buying seeds online and trying to get them to grow myself. And boy, it's been harder than I would have expected. I can't possibly list all of the sophisticated seed pretreatments I learned above, but the cliffnotes version is that a lot of these poison plant seeds have sophisticated dormancy mechanisms that have to overcome before they can grow. For example, to start the germination of Deadly Nightshade I had to weaken the seed coat with HCl, then start the germination with Gibberellic acid, then wait 30-100 days for some of them to sprout. Much more complicated than just adding water to soil! I also bought a commercial germination chamber in the interim (more on that later), grow lights and, of course, a lot of plant pots. Anyways, here's some of the progress I made this year:
Figure 1 Grow lights (left), and a commercial germination chamber (right)
Originally I bought several grow lights, one of which is shown to the left in the image above. They're pretty good (although assembling them was a pain), but once the plants get tall I have to move them lest they hit the grow lights. I also bought a commercial germination chamber (right) to get seeds to sprout faster, with mixed results. Some seeds germinate easily (like the edible plant seeds), but the poison plants are all really hard to get to sprout.
Figure 2 The front room is full of plants. I don't know where to put them.
Some of the earliest sprouters of Deadly Nightshade, Bittersweet Nightshade, and Brugmansia, are now in the largest pots waiting in the front room. I don't know exactly where I want to put them in the house, so they're just in this holding pattern in the front room with a bunch of grow lights. Maybe I can just convert the entire room to a plant-only room!
Not show in the images above are several Pink Oleander plants I have growing in a room upstairs, or the grow tower in the kitchen (I still haven't filled that thing we plants yet). I grew everything from seeds I ordered online starting about a year ago, so It's pretty cool to see the full grown plants. I bought grow lights from a company called Mother Life, the plants do much better when they're under those lights. One issue I'm having is where I'd like to put the full-grown plants. I need to put them wherever I can put the Mother Life grow lights, but I need to surround them with lights to keep them healthy. Perhaps I can put them in a corner, then periodically rotate the pot (somehow) to stop the plant from leaning to close to the grow lights (which is something that constantly happens now). Actually, upon doing some very basic research I found that plant turntables exist! I think that greatly expands the number of places I can put the plants, although I will likely need to order more wall mounts. I'll draw up some sketches and post updates later! |
Morganna's Adventures | |
October 20th 2023 | |
The Founding of Morganna's House! | |
Question: What is this website? Answer: It's just a hobby website! | |
by Morganna Nikolaevna | |
Background I've wanted to make a hobby website for a while, but I could never muster up the courage to do so. I always found it mildly embarrassing, my hobbies, and didn't want to share them. I think I've always been that way. If I told people what I was interested in when I was a kid, that just become ammunition to make fun of me at a later date (or even immediately). I'm not super interested in people (anyone) reading what I post here—I figure this is more for my own sake that I can document my doings so that, decades down the road, I can say I accomplished something with my life. Why "Morganna's House"? What about a blog? While watching watching the YouTube video "The mystery of 'MICHAELSOFT BINBOWS'", I learned of a website called Alf's Room, created by a Japanese man named Adachi Yoshinori. The website, told through the fictional character Alf, catalogue Adachi's travels and commentary as he visited various places in Japan over the last 20 years (it also has a lot of images of trains). I very much like the simple 90's aesthetic of the site, and feel like it conveys a lot of character of the creator. I also like how the website is told through the persona "Alf" (so too this site will be told through the persona of Morganna), so perhaps, even if the chance is remote, the author felt inclined to do the same thing I'm planning to do here: create a website using a mask, the anonymity increasing my confidence to post my feelings and hobbies online. I wanted to use a simple HTML/CSS website like this, and not a blog, simply because I enjoy the mild coding experience of doing it myself. Every time I considered alternatives in the past, such as WordPress, I got less excited and never made the site. The fact that I'm here, now, making this post, is proof itself that the act of actually opening Dreamweaver and sending the files via sFTP myself is a necessary motivation (enjoyment) that I need for something like this. Why not a blog? Because a blog didn't give my the motivation. I also feel like this site, hosted and created myself, affords me slightly more privacy that a well known content management system like WordPress or Blogger. Who is "Morganna"? Morganna (alternatively Morgana; I personally think it looks better with 2 "n's", and I also want to differentiate it from the character in the game I'm about to discuss) is a fictional character from The House in Fata Morgana, a visual novel I played on the PSP several years ago. I would argue The House in Fata Morgana, along with Swann's Way, are the two greatest works of art I've ever read. Told in the 1st person you, the narrator, gain consciousness in a dilapidated mansion in France in (or around) the 1800's. The maid of the house approaches you, asks if you know who you are (you don't), and explains that "If you're here now, you must have lived here in the past". The maid then begins to explain several seemingly unrelated stories of the lives of the people who have lived in this house in the past. The stories, at least superficially, are unrelated. There are only three loose narrative threads that connect them: (1) the maid is present in every story (even though there's 100's of years between the earliest stories and the latest, (2) it's mentioned that there's a "witch" that lives in the house, and the witch's curse ensures that, (3) every story ends in a tradegy. After learning of all the tragedies, the maid finally arrives at your story, which is a sprawling, complex, winding tale of how you, Micheal, connect every tragedy, and how the witch, Morgana, is real. 1000 years ago, Morgana was chained in the top of a church tower (the church would later become the house itself), and every day people would come to the top of the tower, cut her where ever she had bare skin, harvest her blood, and drink it for it's "healing" powers. They believed Morgana was a saint, and tortured her as result until she died. When she died, she cursed every person who partook in her torture: "Every cut on my skin will be a 1000 lifetimes of suffering." This lead to all the tragedies—each person, each story hitherto, tortured Morgana in a past life. Their crimes chained them to their past, and birthed their future suffering.
Figure 2 The House in Fata Morgana
Fan art of Morgana holding her own corpse, still chained at the top of the tower. The blue butterflies are common in the game, and I eventually commisioned a knife to be made using a similiar motif.
The story ends, ultimately, with you, the Archangel Michael, breaking Morgana's curse. All of the stories you heard, all the pain endured, her prayers from 1000 years ago, crying out to be saved. The final scenes were you hold her in your arms, covered in scars, barely conscious, and she asks "Is Father proud" are scenes I still turn over in my head to this day. I hate religion, but that religious symbolism was very moving (tears in my eyes). The Morganna (two "n's") on this website is my loose imagination, interpretation, of "Modern Morganna", i.e., what would Morganna be interested in if she lived into modern times? So too will this site be slightly told through her perspective, with her giving her opinions on things. Her hobbies and interests, I imagine, would mirror mine, and I will use this fictional character as a mask to feel more comfortable with publishing my thoughts and ideas to the internet. Closing Remarks Morganna's room won't be "high effort". I'm going to make little to no attempt to proof read anything (sans some minor spelling checking for obvious errors). I already do a lot of proofreading and copy editing at my job, and I don't want my hobby website to require it is as well. That's the most time consuming and least fun part of the actual writing process, so I will avoid a lot of it here. While I do value privacy, I would like to believe that this website, however imperfect, may be useful to someone someday. Although I'd be deluding myself to believe that, perhaps it's use is the therapeutic value I'm finding right now as I make it. |
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